Perspective

I'm just going to leave this here for myself. I don't mind sharing it with you, but it's more as a reminder for myself that no matter where I am right now, it's a far cry from where I was almost 13 months ago!

I'm not where I want to be, but I'm getting there!

Time for Something New!

As the sound of crickets have been heard through my blog over the past almost 6 months, I've decided it's time for some new accountability!

Life has been crazy busy, and I've done well sticking to the meal plan that one of my coach friends had put together for me. I finally got to the point where the scale said 25% BF and it definitely got under 175 and at one point I had the metabolic age of a 25 yr old!! Super exciting!

 And then I just stopped.

I tend to do this. I set a goal, I work actively towards it, I achieve I and then I give up. I've noticed this pattern looking back on my life and I realize I did it here too!  I'd reached my goals, had no accountability or push to reach a new one and as a wise woman once said to me, "If you are not moving forwards, you are moving backwards." So I stopped pushing myself, stopped caring and allowed myself to let life not only life all over me, but let it drag me down and started moving backwards.

I have honestly let my depression take over and I ate junk food for the last 3 weeks. I have pounded back chips, popcorn, candy... I stopped being consistent with my tabs and my nutrient timing and I gained 5 lbs and 4% BF back. Plus, my energy has been almost non existent and my sleep schedule has been a mess. Feeling gross and miserable turned my mood gross and miserable and.... Well, it's just been a yucky time.

Thankfully, I've been able to recognize that this shift in my life is not one that's going to be in my favour and so after chatting with a different coach friend who did a competition jearlier this year, I decided it was time for me to push myself, to hold myself accountable to a new level and to get some sick results. I've always envied those fit girls who had abs and beautiful biukini bodies and I've decided it's time for one of my own!! So I've joined the H24Fit Smoothies and Shakerz and I'm excited to be competing in a Novice Mama bikini comp Oct 15th!

Here are my starting pics:

Well... Gotta start somewhere, I guess! 

I've never owned a bikini before. Ever. Purchasing my very first bikini in my entire life was a definite out-of-my-comfort-zone move today. Putting it on and having photographic evidence of my last 3 weeks was very humbling and reminded me that whether I kept a accurate food journal or not, my body is going to. But being able to really look at my body in this way makes me proud of how far I've already come and really makes clear to me how ready I am to really kick everything up a notch and push myself to a new epic result!

 I am excited to do this Oct comp and know that by my 31st birthday (Oct 27th) I will not only be in the best shape of my life, but will have achieved what only 2 years earlier I was convinced would never be possible. And I get to do it eating my delicious Herbalife products! 

It is still a challenge for me to not compare myself to others who have posted their starting pics in the private Facebook page, but I am actively reminding myself that this competition is about me only truly competing with myself to get to my own personal best. They have not had my life and I have not had theirs and I have to be gracious and allow myself to be ok with where I am and to know that ultimately, it doesn't matter what I look like now, because this is the starting point. And everything from here is going to be improvements! 

I'm excited and it's going to be awesome and I'm looking forward to sharing my challenges and this entire experience with you as well! 

Wish me luck!!